Heck on Earth

School is just hounding on me. I am swomped with projects and papers and research that I just can't handle the costant pressure. When Will I Get A Break?

Fondant

For those Food Network addicts out there you should all know about fondant which is a sugar dough used to cover cakes (usually used in profesional cakery businesses) and I made fondant from scratch and used it!

Can you believe it! I have this cake decorating book and I used the recipe for fondant and made a cake and covered it. It makes all the difference I'm telling you. Having a smooth satin finish is unbelievably beautiful and piping looks ten times better on it too!

I have to admit I am no Duff Goldman or Sarah Finnerman but I have to say I did pretty well for me not having any training in the art of cake decorating. I also did brush embroidery which is when you make an outline and then use a brush dipped in egg whites and brush the outline inward creating the look of a flower or leaf or yeah that is really all I think you can make that looks really well with brush embroidery.

So, I am on my way to becoming a cake decorator and open my own cakery/bakery. I have just started to think of names. Non of them I have truly liked but some a sounding pretty catchy. I'll come up with a name that is perfect for me and my pastry business.

Madame De Bake-a-lot

Everybody knows that I am quite good at baking and decorating and the thing is that I haven't really baked in a while and I am extremely upset with myself because my true passion in life is decorating cakes and I haven't done that in a while so thus a part of me is diminshing.

Yeah, yeah so I sound like a weird spirital freak. But hell maybe I do but here is the fact that I need to bake and decorate a cake or so help me God life we a boring heap un frosted lazy cakes. And I will probably not be the cause but part of the cause so don't blame me!

I really sound completely deluded. Oh well. Bu just wanted to say that my life is still on track with the whole pastry chef stuff.

Fall Break Has Arrived

Fall break is here and life is so perfect. I am getting A's and boy god damn I am so freakin happy with myself, my grades are good and it is fall break and I get to sleep in and work on some work over the break but still I have a plan that i will work on my work piece by piece everyday till it is done. Now mind you it is a very small partion of the work but hell I am still doing something now aren't I?

I am so happy that I can relax but the thing is that I am so out of shape and I dont like it at all! So I decided to run every morning and get back in shape. I mean I ran today and I can feel my muscles are a little sore but not a lot and I think that if I run everyday and stretch and then I'll be used to running and then I will be fit and my legs will look better.

Trust me that it all I really want is better legs and to feel better about myself.

I have plans this break that are dealt with sleeping, running, floating in the pool, and eating.

I am happy with my plan...

What's yours?

I need a break

I so desperitely need a break because well face it I have been working my arse off making sure that all my work; essays, chemistry projects, and all that crap is good. I have written so many papers about things I don't even care about my fingers have gone bad and words just pour out of me in a organized paper like manner that I have lost my witty talkity talk in class and sometimes around my friends.

No you listen here my witty banter is pretty much "me" okay because without my witty banter I am nothing but the drap people who try to hide there inner self.

And franky I cannot stand people like that and I do not mean to sound harsh but a lot of people I know will be themselves then like someone just flipped a switch it is gone and ti all because of insecurity and god people neet more self esteem because God help me like would be so much nicer with more self happiness!

So, it took me a while to completely comfortable with me just being a complete me and not hinding my umm I would call it dorkiness or wittiness or goofiness or happiness. I just am so tired of people acting one way and then just acting like a drone the next and I am saying this because I am friends with one i am not using a name but I just feel that some friends are just acting different when around a large amount of people who do not really know them like their good awesome friends (that's me).

I still love umm though (my friends not random drone like people).

I just wanted to say HI and give a message, live life with your life not a life you think you should live.